Sunday, October 10, 2004
i hope he bought you roses
mmmm do i keep this journal?? i mean honestly how many people really read this anyway? then again do i really care?? *shrugs* i guess i cant really expect people to actually care about what my crappy, or not so crappy day is like....
lol i guess i do kinda care, i almost kinda wish people cared what about what i had to say, or well read what i wrote....thats why we all have these right??
neway hes what i gotta say:
so i went to work this morning and then came on home, jason picked me up from the train station then we went to his aunts for her birthday....after that we came back to my parents house and hung out here for a bit, then dropped him off at home....pretty uneventful night....i was thinking about headin back to the ro po tomorrow night but i dunno now because i was gonna go to see reforma but now we're not going....mmmm...so i dunno, i do have studying to do :-/ boo...oooo i wanna see this....saw...that looks scary.....i also wanna see what the fuck fo we know. its supposed to be one of those life changing movies....
i also dont know what to do about jason...he and i have already "seen each other" and then he started dating this other girl while we were seeing eachother...they just recently broke up and we've been hanging out a lot more....i mean i still have feelings for him, and im pretty sure that he still has feelings for me...but i want to know for sure, and i dont know how to find out for sure without just coming out and asking him....which i dont want to do :-/.....i wouldnt mind dating him again. *shrugs* we'll see (if you read my very first entry, if any of you really care....you'll understand why im in a bit of a dilema with the whole jason thing...you'll see how hurt i was by him..)
Posted at 12:29 am by adayathebeech
Thursday, October 07, 2004
i didnt know you i wanted to hold on to the things youd never say to me
wow so its about 9.45 and right now im studying for the history quiz that i have at 11.15.....wish me luck i have to do well on this.....then i think im going to lunch.....dropping stuff off at my dad's office.....going to work to get my inhaler......meeting with my police procedures group and then leann is coming over....awesome.....then its the start of a nice long weekend, minus the fact that i have to work sat and monday......neway have a great day everyone.
Posted at 09:54 am by adayathebeech
Sunday, October 03, 2004
so this weekend started out pretty rough.....i found out that my best friend has had a girlfriend for 5 months now, and didnt have the nerve to tell me.....and since i didnt know i decided that it would be ok for me to spill my guts to him and tell him how much i well i flet that lil four letter word for him.....and then i find out 2 weeks later that hes had this girlfriend....wow. way to shatter my heart. but whatever just another thing for me to get over.....i was so upset though that leann actaully had to come up to keep me from breakin stuff....i havent been that way in a long time.... and so i went home this weekend spent time with leann and jason....which was nice....i decided that im gonna start a photo journal instead of writing down my thoughs im gonna take pictures of things i mean ill still try and keep this but i think a photo journal would be so much more fun for me....*shrugs* but anyway i need to go finish launhdry...peace out
song of the day: billy joel- vienna
Posted at 06:14 pm by adayathebeech
Thursday, September 30, 2004
what do we want from this life? cuz we're in it now.
Hey guys hows it goin??? not to much here...my friends mark, bob, chris, and pete played a show there other night at the bar by my house....and it was awesome! anyway, here are the pics for those of you who are interested..... it was quite a stunning time...hehehe other than that nothing new is going on im negotiating buying tix from my friend adam for the taking back sunday show on sat....right now i got him at 55 bucks and dinner.....*holds on tight* cuz she really wants to go to this show..... neway hope everyone has a great weekend! peace.
Posted at 04:25 pm by adayathebeech
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
i cant make it to your wedding but im sure ill be at your wake
booo im sick. and i have class 9.30am - 9.30pm today. i think im going home after my poly sci class. or i might die. neway, enough of my bitching. peace out campers.
song of the day: ocean breathes salty-modest mouse
Posted at 01:10 pm by adayathebeech
Sunday, September 19, 2004
if it were up to me i wouldnt have to miss you its for the best in the bitter end.
so in the end he told me exactly what i knew he was gonna tell me.....that im to good of a friend, his only best friend thats a girl....and he would never want to ruin what we have. fair enough. its just something else for me to get over. not really what i wanted to hear. but its what i knew i was gonna hear. doesnt change the way i feel about him though. today is gonna be spent at what? the library. good god. i have to go though. i have so much work i need to get done, then i get to go to celtic fest and carmines for dinner. i should prolly clean my apartment. but dill still has my vaccum. haha didnt really wanna clean anyway. im going to try keepin this up during the school year, hopefully thatll work out. im just super busy with work and school and well my social life. haha. but well ill try my best, and im gonna get back on my photo journal too. so that lil link over yonder in my profile section that says pics of my friends, u guys should check it out from time to time, im sure they'll be some hilarious ones in there. its never a dull moment with me and my friends.
song of the day: Alkaline Trio- bleeder
Posted at 11:37 am by adayathebeech
Friday, September 17, 2004
cuz nothings like bein held sometimes
so much shit has gone on this week. i dont even know where to begin.....well lets start off first with sayin that so far school is goin really well, so thats a good thing.
life on the other hand, i guess is getting better. i found out just recently that this guy that i was kinda dating is gay. he has just recently come out, and was in denial for well 21 years of his life. good for him though, im very happy for him. and i know that our relationship will not change.
then i proceeded to tell my best friend that i love him, something that i have a very hard time saying to people and well now hes not talking to me. that kills. i mean i dunno i wasnt really looking for anything coming out of the fact that i told him because he lives in va. but i at least wanted him to know how i felt. no i think that maybe i shouldnt of said anything at all. but if i hadnt then i would have regreted never saying anything. i guess i need to move on.
so then last night i met this really cute kid and i guess i may try to see what happens there. anyway things are starting to get better which is nice, just gotta keep on truckin.
haha yay for the cliff notes version of my life right now.
song of the day: Saves The Day- Hold
p.p.s. im real glad that they put the color changer thing back to the way it was cuz it was making my life difficult before! :)
Posted at 12:11 pm by adayathebeech
Friday, August 20, 2004
yay my birthday is tomorrow!!!! imma be 20!!!! what a shitty age though, i mean i cant do anything special, its just one more year of torture before i turn 21! ha...thats terrible..... on another note...i got a new job i now work at lakeshore athletic club teachin swim lessons and lifeguarding....its a whole lot better than the other job that i had..... school starts soon ....boo to that i have 18 credit hours and im going to be working 2 jobs possibly...one for sure..... in the love life realm nothing going on there....*crickets chirp* tonight though im supposed to go out with my fam we're going to la mex...such good food and then jason is taking me out to see a movie and then to meet his uncle....yea.... have a great day kids...peace
Posted at 09:03 am by adayathebeech
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
hey everyone, hows it goin......so its been awhile.....ive been pretty busy...i got a job, i now work to save the environment.....workin to reduce mercury pollution....oh yea. hmmm what else? i got a new bike, im watching ryans cat....he went back to georgia for a week...bob-a comes in to visit tonight!!!!!! and chris comes at the 23rd!!!!!! *does a jig* i cant wait to see that kid!!!! hes my favorite in the whole world! ooo cute boy just walked into the coffee shop....hello cute boy. haha ummmm other than that same old shit... no wait i made deans list! haha impressive huh? ok that is all for now.
Posted at 01:37 pm by adayathebeech
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Life on Standby-Hawthorne Heights Look at the glare, My hearts descend, Flowing through the hourglass. Time to let go, Of All we've known, Break our hearts to stop. I'll need you now, More like yesterday, The last day I could see you smile. For the last time, Turn out the lights, My Life on Standby. So Standby and Watch, This fall away and Fall Apart. Just say that its over, Its over and she's gone. (NOW... SHE'S...GONE) Don't Worry He Said, and she's not coming home. (SHE'S....NOT...COMING...HOME) Its over and she's Gone. The Distance and, my heart's descend, Flowing through the hourglass. I've thought of pieces, I can't let go, Of all the times I never said goodbye. Just say that its over, Its over and she's gone. (NOW... SHE'S...GONE) Don't Worry He Said, and she's not coming home. (SHE'S....NOT...COMING...HOME) Its over and she's gone. WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! hey tough guy its over... Just tell me its ok to die. WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! hey tough guy its over... Just tell me its ok to die. Wake up now, its over. Just tell me its ok to die. Wake up now, its over. Just tell me its ok to die.
Posted at 09:43 am by adayathebeech