so i tried posting yesterday and my computer was acting really funky...so it erased it not once not twice but three times...so finally i just gave up....so you gotta love chicago because it is november 18 at 9.30am and its 61 degrees out and raining...awesome....better that below zero and snowing like it usually is...so this weekend i went home...it was nice to be home...saturday night jason came over...yea i know bad me...but you know what its ok now...becasue i am officially over him...i really am i promise....so its ok for him and i to hang out now...so anyway he came over and we watched dumb and dumberer....it was alright....there were some hilarious parts to it...but over all it was just an ok movie...then sunday i did alot of sleeping...and the my lil bro and i went to his confirmation spirit day...yea im a terrible influence...lol because he and i just sat there making fun of the music they were playin and what not...but we did do the lil activities they wanted us to do...turns out we need to do community service together as well...i think we're gonna be doing a soup kitchen....that should be fun...that brings us to yesterday...ya'll are gonna be proud of me cuz i actually went to 2 out of 3 of my classes yesterday!!! haha thats good comapred to how i only usually go to one....and the only reason why i went to english is because my teacher emailed me wanting to know where i was....opps... hmmm i got some good news this morning from my philosophy teacher...and that is that i dont have to turn my paper in till friday...excellent...so i went to the bar last night as usual...and i sang joy to the world by three dog night....all for you by sister hazel...and song of the south by alabama...because i was wearing a cowboy hat last night so i thought i would sing a country song....hahaha...oh im gonna be posting new pictures here in a bit so check those out...what else...ummm oh with my friend bob-a's help i discovered a new band called thelounious monk...they're really good...deviates quite a bit from my usual punky self but they're good...yous guys should go check them out!!!! so ill post two songs of the day today because yesterday's wasnt put up...unwritten law which i was going to originaly today and ummm i dont know the other one yet...and ill add a picture for the early november from my last post...put up some new pics...and i think that'll do it for right now...ill post later on tonight again...so have a great day guys!! oh and by the way its a terential down poor outside...geeze...i love chicago!

Hot Rod Circuit- A Nature's Mercy

Hard not to get hooked...
Hooked on you.
Hard not to get hooked...
Hooked on you.
I think of all the trouble that we get into whenever I'm around you.
Nothing I can do.
All the secrets and mistakes
Yeah, that were made.
What else do I have to say?
I hate being without you.
Never going to leave your side 'cause I can't resist the crazy thing you do.
It's going to take a lot of your time and I hope someday I can give it back to you.
All the trouble that we get into.
Whenever I'm around you,
All the secrets and mistakes that we made.
What else do I have to say?
I hate being without you.
Never going to leave your side 'cause I can't resist the crazy thing you do.
It's going to take a lot of your time and I hope someday I can give it back to you.
Hard not to get hooked...
Hooked on you.
Hard not to get hooked...
Hooked on you.
I think of all the trouble that we get into whenever I'm around you.
Nothing I can do.
All the secrets and mistakes
Yeah, that were made.
What else do I have to say?
I hate being without you.

wee action shot!

 

Yesterdays song of the day:

Unwritten Law-Rescue Me

Shut down
Fallin over once again
Dropped out
Hand extended for a friend
Looked up
And there's you lookin in
And who cares
Cause no ones lookin anyway
Impaired
My vision lost it yesterday
And that's fine
Don't mind feelin that way
Just don't let me lie here by my self
Let’s go
I know I'm faded
Outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
Outta sight
Tonight
Just rescue me
I don't wanna go
Rewind and take me back to start again
Ducked out cause paranoia's settin in
But I'm with you until the end
One ride
We'll drive around the parkin lot
No pride
Cause I don't seem to care a lot
No cash
This change is all I got
Just don't let me ride here by myself now
Let’s go
I know I'm faded
Outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
All right
Tonight
Just rescue me, I don't wanna go
So set still
One last thrill
Just stay with me and we'll never go home
Outta sight
Tonight
Just rescue me and we'll never go home
Yeah we'll never go home Yeah
I don't wanna go
One more ride
One time once again
Just climb in
I'm still climbing yeah
One more ride
One time once again
Just climb in
I'm still climbing
Outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
All right
Tonight
Just rescue me, I don't wanna go
So set still
One last thrill
Just stay with me and we'll never go home
Outta sight
Tonight
So rescue me and we'll never go home


ohh please dont squishy me!

weeeeeeeeeee so u guys got lucky and im posting before i leave!! i know how excited ya'll are!!! haha neway....so last night amanda, leann and i went to the bar..there was a live band playin..eh they sucked...we were there for about oh 15 min and then left...so we were walkin back towards our place and there was a homeless man sleeping in a doorway..and hes lyin on his side facing us and hes peeing...sick...he was layin in his own piss...so we dropped amanda off at her place then leann and i walked down to the El and went to clarks...sat there for awhile and then jumped back on the El and the first train we got on was over crowded and im claustrophobic so we got back off to wait for the next one we get on the next one and someone puked in the car...sick SICK SICK...so just when leann and i thought that the night couldnt get any grosser we almost step in puke walkin down my block...WHAT THE HELL PEOPLE?!?! i dont understand what has become of this world...geeze...well anyway, im going to go clean out my portable turtle tank so i can bring mortimer home with me this weekend...he'll get lonley if i leave him here by himself....then i think leann and i are gonna go eat and head home...tomorrow i get to go to my brothers confirmation retreat...yippee!!! and hmm well i think thats about it!!! everyone have a great weekend!!!!!! here is the song...well for the weekend! or well maybe ill put up two songs one for today one for tomorrow

song of the day!  yea so nothing much happend to day....the only thing interesting is that im a clutz..and twisted my ankle...yea way to go me...well im gonna be home this weekend...my brother has a confirmation retreat the the both of us need to go to, because im his sponsor! yay! :) so i wont be on here at all this weekend...try not to miss me to much!! hehehe well im off to where ever we are going tonight...ummm well i lied im off to finish making myself look pretty...then we are off to where ever we are off to! haha have a great night everyone...and if ur lucky! ill post tomorrow before i leave!

Lucky Boys Confusion-Still
Sitting, attractively bored
I guess I had this coming, it’s been a long time coming
Casually she kills me, attractively bored
I leave too much unsaid, I leave too much unsaid
You’ve got the sand in the palm of your hand
Don’t let it slip away
Regret haunts forever, don’t try to be clever
To shatter these weak walls
And finally he approaches, the one he’s watched so long
He musters up his courage, hello
Then he turns around and heads back to the daily life he knows
When a tap upon his shoulder, hello
Sweating, my swagger ignored
And I’m swaying on the border, got to get my life in order
Casually she stills me, attractively scarred
I leave too much unsaid, I leave too much unsaid
Youve got the sand in the palm of your hand
Don't let it slip away
Regret haunts forever, don't try to be clever
To shatter these weak walls
And finally he approaches, the one he's watched so long
He musters up his courage, hello
Then he turns around and heads back to the daily life he knows
When a tap upon his shoulder, hello

my other boys from the hood! (yea this is a bad pic too)

 

wow its definetly 330 in the morning...and im still up...so im really frustrated...i went to go change my major today...so that im an official criminal justice major...well i find out that im still only considered a freshman...because the credits that they told me where going to transfer from my old college..didnt...so i have an extra year tacked on...well that just sucks dont it...other than that i really didnt do much today...went to law and stayed for all of it...which is a good thing..then i went to hammy's and came back to my apartment to see leann and we just sat around and talked...she and i are soooo much alike its scary...but its also a good thing cuz you know that there is always someone that will be able to understand what your feeling and thinking and what not...thats a great thing and when you have something like that you dont let it go...and i mean dont get me wrong im vrey greatful that i have leann as a friend shes the best one i got...but i dunno i wish i could just make that connection with a guy now...sigh...i dunno man...but well imma get goin here cuz it is way late..and i should be sleepin..although i prolly wont be able to and will prolly stay up bullshitin around on here some more...damn today is already friday...the week went by so fast! thats nuts man...or woman which ever you are....and haha belive it or not i typed this entire thing laying down and with my eyes shut...and i dont believe there are any mistakes...damn i scare myself sometimes...well anyway song of the day...

The Juliana Theory-August in Bethany
with the sounds of the ocean crashing 7:30 friday evening everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds i'd rather rest forever in your arms i'd rather stay here than go but i know that i should leave as i sit here helpless don't go you said you wouldn't you said you couldn't i think of our time together is it fading am i dreaming everything you said lives on i cherish our memories i want to kiss your tears away tonight it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave don't go your eyes see through my soul don't go you say as i walk out the door.
with the sound of the ocean crashing 7:30 friday evening everything comes tumbling down

eh this is a bad pic...

WHOA THEY DONT CALL US THE WINDY CITY FOR NOTHING...damn...i almost got blown over out there!!! so today i only went to public speaking, then spent most of my day with my friend at work....just to keep her company....then i went and began the process of switching my major, and the process of picking classes....arrr so much to do...does it ever stop?! no!!!!! hmm so thats about all that i did today...yea i know really boring...im going to battle of the bands in about an hr!!! my friend mark is playin...i hope he wins...he really deserves to...and then i belive afterwards we are going to hamiltons...its wing night!!!! yay!!!! well thats about it...imma go make myself some din din...have a great night!!

Mest-Broken Glass

Time goes by, I just try
To hold my head up high
People try to deny
Classify, or just hide
The feelings, what's inside
Broken hearts, and hard times
Don't let life break you down this time
I'm sitting here, crying here
You're alone, and dying there
Waiting for bad news
Like walking on broken glass
No answers for what was asked, you're all alone
Cuz you know that I'd give my life for you
Time can be nothing but our enemy
Don't give up just hold on
Is the pain just too strong
To hold on
Sometimes we're wrong when we think we're right
Tonight will be the night
You'll break free from this fight
Dont let life break you down this time
I'm sitting here, crying here
You're alone, and dying there
Waiting for bad news
Like walking on broken glass
Nowhere just others ask you're all alone
Cuz you know that I'd give my life for you
Time can be nothing but our enemy
I die inside from all I feel
Does it have to be this way?
Memories of yesterday
When it all just slips away
I give up everything I had to keep you one more day
I know that it's not right
Why do we feel this way?
Why do I feel this way
I'm sitting here, crying here
You're alone, and dying there
Waiting for bad news
Like walking on broken glass
Nowhere just others ask you're all alone
Cuz you know that I'd give my life for you
Time can be nothing but our enemy

These are my boys...straight from Chi-Town!

so this morning my alarm went off at 6am cuz i had every intention of getting up and going swimming...no no that didnt happen seeing as how i didnt get to sleep till about 3.30.  so i reset my alarm for 8...got up and began writing my 8-10 page paper for forensic science, a paper that i had known about since the beginning of the semester...known that it was due today since the beginning of the semester but was just to lazy to do it!! i took a break around 2 in order to go eat lunch with mark and tell him the good news i had for him!!! the good news being that i had run into dj dan earlier on this morning when Leann, Cara, and I were leaving dunkin donuts...sadly he noticed that mark and i werent there, but thats besides the point, he and i talked about how mark was going to be playing in battle of the bands tomorrow, and i told him how much mark wants to just be able to play a gig somewhere...and how good mark is and so dan said that he would talk to a friend of his and see what he could do about getting mark a gig somewhere!!! needless to say mark was estatic when he found out this information!!! then another good thing about today, is that i just found out that i can get the internet in my apartment!!! i have a wireless connection and granted its a bit slow and a lil tempermental at times, it is better than nothing!!!! so after eating dinner with mark i came back to my apartment and finished my paper...got it done at 4.00 which is the time that i wanted to be done with it anyway, jumped in the shower, cleaned my turtles tank, took out the trash, printed my paper and went to class....then i went to the library with amanda..what is a library you ask? yea i didnt know what one of those library things were either till amanda asked me to go with her..i guess you are supposed to study there...yea i dont know what study means either...now im here in my apartment lookin for stuff to do...well have a great night everyone! 

 Something Corporate-Konstantine

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams
And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, would you let me go
and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me
And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me
And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live
Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere
My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And i was thinking, what i was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere
This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant
And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No
This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey Maybe Baby, You could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine
Spin Around me like a Dream
We played out on this movie screen
And i said, did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did You know i miss you
Did you know i miss you
Did you know i miss you
God, I miss you
And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live
My Konstantine

well mark and i watched grosse pointe blank and it was an excellent movie...then we went to go eat and now im here...i have a killer headache...i dont know what from...i think imma go back to my apartment and sleep...so much for writing my paper...that sucks...i took some sex quizzes cuz i was bored...some of those results are posted below...ummm well yea thats it for now! hes the song of the day!

Sex quizzes....yea i was bored

You Are an EXPERT in Bed
You know precisely what you’re doing when the sheets are pulled down and the panties go right along with them. You’re also super confident, and rightly so. Because any man who may be fortunate enough to find himself between your legs is a happy man, indeed. You’re the type of woman men brag about in locker rooms: knowledgeable, adorable, and lickable. You’ve gotten to the point that you don’t even have to try so hard. It all just comes naturally: the mouth, the hips, everything underneath.
One lovely little package.

An unexpected bonus for just about every guy on the planet. He’s plowing you and you’re yelling for more.
Talk dirty, talk cheap, scream his name, scream complete gibberish. No matter. You are the Mariah Carey of the bedroom and he loves every fucking syllable that spews from your luscious mouth. Maybe you’re the "Mary the Librarian" type by day. But by night, honey, watch out.
The vocal chords let loose with everything your heart and mind have been thinking about all day long.


All sorts of guys long to hook up with you, but your standards are set high You don't just give it up to anyone, but when you do...they can't get enough of you! You have a knack for pleasing and receiving, and sex with you is never boring. Only problem is ~ they all seem to be falling in love with you...


You're extremely oral (like you didn't know that!) You love going down... on guys and girls! You're not one to be too naughty in public -You like to save it all for the bedroom.