so much shit has gone on this week. i dont even know where to begin.....well lets start off first with sayin that so far school is goin really well, so thats a good thing. 

life on the other hand, i guess is getting better. i found out just recently that this guy that i was kinda dating is gay. he has just recently come out, and was in denial for well 21 years of his life. good for him though, im very happy for him. and i know that our relationship will not change. 

then i proceeded to tell my best friend that i love him, something that i have a very hard time saying to people and well now hes not talking to me. that kills. i mean i dunno i wasnt really looking for anything coming out of the fact that i told him because he lives in va. but i at least wanted him to know how i felt. no i think that maybe i shouldnt of said anything at all. but if i hadnt then i would have regreted never saying anything. i guess i need to move on. 

so then last night i met this really cute kid and i guess i may try to see what happens there. anyway things are starting to get better which is nice, just gotta keep on truckin.


haha yay for the cliff notes version of my life right now.



song of the day: Saves The Day- Hold