so yesterday i was comin down to the line with my speech and paper....my paper was basically done and my speech i knew what my topic was...rape...and i knew what i wanted to say...it was just a matter of me writing it all down...so it gets to about 8 and there was talk of going to the bar....so nora and i made a deal with eachother that if she could get three pages of her paper done and i could finish off mine we could go...by 10.30...so i finish and she gets her 3 done...and so the two us and betsy went to the bar....we commenced in drinking and singing...and well chris and i had talked earlier and hes like yea i might go to the bar blah blah...so i get up to call leann...and who walks in the door? chris? <sigh> he smiles at me and we say hi....and talk for a bit...and i go to walk away...and hes like oh ok thats cool....im like what?! i go back and hug him and hes like oh yea sure...be nice now...lol i was like im gonna go sing!!! so about 10 min later he makes his way over to where the three us are sitting...and sits next to me....and we sat there talkin and what not <sigh> he is so cute...so we're talkin and hes bein all cute and what not and then i go up to sing...and he gets up and takes some pics of me...and then he had his arm around me and lol then he went up to go sing...and this girl crystle was talkin to me...and so in the middle of the song hes like vanessa stop talking! lol oh geeze....im like im sorry! im listening!! and when he got done i was like i was listening hes like uh huh....so i hugged him and we held hands for a lil bit....<sigh>....then finally i was like well im gonna sing closing time do you wanna sing with me? hes like yea! promise?! lol so we went up and sang closing time and he put his arm around me while we were singing...and then after the four us and his friend jim are leaving the bar cuz it closed...and so we went down the block to dominicks and bought a 30 pack and came back to my apartment....where we commenced in drinking more had a marker fight...played with my turtle...lol so theres new pictures up of that....and awwww he was still bein so cute like havin his arm around me and what not...and then i was layin in my papisan chair and he comes over and lays ontop of me with his arms half huggin me and hes singing to me im like ur a big nerd...ahhhh hes sooo cute....i like him sooo much....grrrrrrr.....i dunno i think he was just bein really flirty cuz he was drunk....so yea i dunno...im not gonna take it to heart....that much....so then at 5am lol everyone decided it was time to go home....so i walked him halfway back....and there was just more huggin... but it put a smile on my face :) .....i know everyone had fun...even though he imed me this morning wondering what went on cuz he didnt remember everything...lol...oh well *shrugs*....ill put up a song of the day later....go check out the new pics though!!!

Senses Fail-Bloody Romance

Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.
From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.
Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
(Forget my name)Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
(Forget my name)You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
(Forget my name)This time in silence, this time I win.